So it’s been a week since I posted apologising from my recent lack of updates here. I thought I’d just post again to say bit more on what’s happening and also ask some stuff.
Firstly… I would be lying if I said I was doing okay. For one the large amount of tears, anger and being slap around by my depression really drained me and now I’m stuck with a nasty cough. I did have a cold but that’s pretty much gone and just this darn cough that leaves me feeling like I am gasping for air. I viewed a house with my parents and they weren’t happy with it. I thought it was okay and could see it’s potential but the fees and paperwork required were a bit of a slap in the face for someone who was nearly 30 years old and needed her mummy and daddy to be guarantors.
Something that has been slapping me rather harshly in the face is my lack of employment. You see… I make no money from my blog. I’ve had little or no paid work since my daughter’s birth back in 2013. I’ve worked with some amazing companies and I am thankful for all of those, otherwise I would not have accepted them. But the amount of emails I get asking me to write a blog post about a product or company for free has becoming insane. I mean come on. How would you like it if you went to work and your boss said “okay can you do this job for me. In return I’ll pay you by retweeting it”. I’ve recently become a single mother of two children with NO INCOME. How the hell am I going to feed them with a flipping tweet? Explain that to my 5 year old son when he asks why I can’t buy him his favourite magazine.
I’m currently thinking of Patreon as one thing I love is drawing. And I have seen some people enjoying my speed art videos on YouTube. Seriously I enjoy drawing, I have so much fun live streaming what I draw and answering any questions people may have. I do it because I found watching artists on Twitch really helped me step up and learn new tricks. But I have to consider the fact I have a family and at the moment I can’t afford my own house. I’m living with my ex-fiancé and legally he could kick me out as it is his place, not mine. I can’t stand it here. I can’t even say “I’m off home now” because… it’s not my home. It feels weird. I live with my kids and some guy that I barely see who sleeps downstairs. It’s not right, not healthy and yet I can’t leave because that would mean I made myself homeless and the government don’t look kindly on those who make themselves homeless.
So would people consider paying monthly on Patreon? Would be allowed to pay as little as $1 per month and perks will be put in for those that pay $10 or more per month. I just need to know if there’s actually people interested. Otherwise… work on a Plan B I guess.