Apologises – Normality Will Resume Soon!

You’ve probably noticed my lack of updates here. Well stuff in my life has shaken me around and I had not realised how much it had affected me until recently. Most of these are my own health and as I’m a mother of two children I will put my health before my blog, I’m sure you all understand that.

People who have known me for a long time will already know that I have been getting back pains for many years. Those who don’t know it’s been ongoing for roughly 6 years now. Yes I have seen the doctors several times in that period and for a long time I was just thrown pain relief in hope to fix it. It didn’t and they decided to remove my gallbladder which was full of gallstones. This is known to cause back pains so after a bad reaction to the anaesthetic I felt so much better and could get on with my life. Sadly the back pain came back. I have a new doctor and this was the first doctor who actually touched me. Seriously. None of them before had actually touched me to examined me more then just asking me a few questions. It’s been decided that I require physiotherapy so currently on the waiting list, along with a packet of pain relief until then. So the back pain has left me not really being able to sit at my computer for long periods of time. Infact as I write this the pain is so bad I want to cry. If anything I’m mostly fed up of living with this pain. I know something isn’t right about my back and I just want to know what’s wrong.

Next was a bit more serious and I hadn’t really realised how much it was bothering me. A few weeks ago a nurse was examining me and noticed a large and rather firm area on my body. Alarm bells rang in her head and soon in mine when she told me I needed to get booked in the hospital ASAP. I asked her what could it be, seeing as she seemed rather concerned and the fact she wanted me seen to urgently. She said the word no one wants to hear. It could be cancerous. The big scary C word. I very quickly got booked in to hospital, like moments after I got home they called me up. I knew how serious it could well be but some reason I just sort of got on with things. Mostly because I didn’t want people around me knowing and worrying. A few days later I was in hospital where I got the news it wasn’t cancer, however I’d still need surgery. I went shopping afterwards and only as we left to go home did it all hit me. I felt sick as I finally let all the stress and worry out. It hit me how lucky I was, how easily my life could have changed that very moment and glad the nurse did her job so well. I do still need surgery and I’ll probably be semi-inactive when the date of my surgery draws near, but it’s nothing serious. That’s what matters the most.

All I can say is if you think there’s anything abnormal or you are not feeling right then please see your doctor. You know your body better then anyone else and don’t feel you’re wasting GPs time. They are there to help you and rather you saw them then ignore it and let it get worse.

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017

I feel like the last 365 days have been intense for me and my family. I started to year finding out my fiancé wasn’t sure he loved me anymore and as it sunk in I spent most of January of last year feeling stupid for not seeing this coming. Suddenly I had no home, no money and no clue where to go or what to do.

February was unhealthy as we played pretend for the children, but the house was torn apart with upstairs being for me and downstairs for him. By the end of the year the kids and I moved in with my parents and the decision to move back to my birthplace was made. A very hard choice for me because I honestly hated living away from the city, but I also hated where I was currently living. Thankfully the living conditions of two children and three adults in a small 3-bedroom semi-detached house didn’t last long as I signed a contract to move in to a rented house not too far from my parents’ and my brother.

March was tough. It was my 30th birthday and I had hopes to celebrate it like I celebrated my fiancé’s 30th by going to Coombe Mill in Cornwall. But I had not even considered a holiday, my life had been flipped all the way around and I was still waiting for benefits to come through. I was living off my parents’ kindness at this point, I know how lucky I am for having them to fall on as some people out there don’t have that option. Mother’s Day was when I officially moved in to my home and I spent it filled with so many emotions. My parents’ did get my son to sign a card to give to me which meant so much, I was just about able to do the same for my own mother as I lacked transport other then asking my dad to take me places. And bare in mind they live in a countryside village so there’s little to no busses and no shops.

April was weird and also tough. It was my son’s birthday and the first time my ex’s family came over. It would also be the last time. Ignoring the fact Tesco screwed up the order for my son’s birthday food and cake and added salt to the wound by offering me £5 gift card as a form of apology, they were just rather rude and at no point thanked me for being the hostess, instead talked about me as if I wasn’t there and thanked my mother for doing everything. This didn’t go unnoticed by my own mother who responded saying was all me. Of course I never got a simple thank-you or anything like that. But to turn over a new leaf my son had started at a brand new school.

From here on my kids were doing well. My son was in a fantastic school and had made friends almost instantly. My daughter was now able to gain 15 free hours at nursery and was at an awesome nursery just round the corner. It was all perfect, but I was still not feeling right. I didn’t know why until later on in the year and I feel stupid for leaving it so long too.

Over time I took my boy camping just me and him for the first time, trips to the beach, spending pennies at the arcades, going to the fireworks display for the first time and having impetigo and other horrible things. But we did it together and made it through it all.

I met a guy. I was very sure I’d never want to date ever again after 11 years with someone just got drained out of me. I wasn’t looking for love and yet something happened and now I have this kind gentleman who will drive 5 hours to see me on a regular basis, sends me flowers and treats me whether it’s a beautiful Pandora bracelet (oh my god I’m still in shock he got me one! Eeep!) or just taking me out for a coffee. It feels weird but in a good way. No, in a GREAT way.

December was just chaotic, having to start all over buying a tree, decorating the house and then realising Christmas was just around the corner… oh god it was a nightmare and I hit rock bottom. This is what I had ignored for months, this feeling of tiredness and hate. I couldn’t be bothered with anything and I was always grumpy and yelling at my children. I had seen my doctor and been given medication but for some (stupid) reason I didn’t take them. Only a few days ago have I finally accepted that I need them. I need anti-depressants. And that’s okay.

The year ended on a good note, meeting an old friend at his wife for a game of Game of Thrones Cluedo, Pizza Hut and some drinks. It was perfect and I cannot wait for 2017 to roll on. I have so many ideas in my head. But you’ll have to wait for that another time.

If you’ve gotten this far then congrats! Seriously even I’m fed up of reading my own blog post! I’ve found 2016 to suck not because of all the losses we’ve seen (though many of them really did upset me) and the hatred we’ve seen, rather it sucked because it was a chaotic mess. But I made my way through it somehow. Time to clear up and make things perfect!

REVIEW: Cat Ear Headphones

I haven’t done much in way of reviews recently, specially after my move from being a parenting blogger to more video games and tech. But when the people of Oregon Scientific contacted me to work with them I was very excited because the product was one I was very interested in trying out for a while. The cat ear headphones!

I’ve been looking for some headphones that are comfortable around my eyes. I find earphones to be uncomfortable and often one of them will pop out every so often. The other type are on the ear headphones which as someone who wears glasses all day I found rather painful pressing my ears against the arms of my glasses. These headphones are OVER the ears and have a soft cushion to keep sound in as well as outside sound out, meaning you get comfort and no noise from around you disturbing your music. Perfect!

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Quality wise the sound is very good, in fact better then I expected! The ears are speakers so your friends can listen to whatever music you have on as well rather then having to do that weird share one earplug thing that you see some people do. The speakers are super amazing but good enough that your mates can listen just fine. Quality is certainly in the headphones themselves when comes to sound and honestly I’ve only really used the ear speakers at the most three times and one of those was by mistake. I was waiting for my class in college to start and when I took my headphones off my teacher asked me if I was enjoying the music as much as he was. Whoops!

The headphones are heavier then normal headphones. This is due to the fact the ears are speakers and thus there’s more involved inside them compared to a normal headset. I thought maybe I’d find this bothersome but I’d not really found it to be a problem. The fit is good enough that they don’t slip off my head and I can use them with my iPhone, iPad and my PC without issues. It also comes with a microphone adaptor that you can add or remove so you could use it for video games and speak to your first on Team Speak, Mumble or Skype. Nice little bonus if you ask me!

So would I recommend these for Christmas? I would! They are fun for music fans as well as gamers too, but I’d bet gamers would all over this. I’ve even met someone else in the wild wearing these so don’t feel shy in showing off your cat ears!

You can find them on Amazon and grab them in time for Christmas.

 

My Top Five Retro Games You Really Must Play

I’ve been playing video games since I was a 5 year old little girl, I was even lucky enough to have a BBC Micro at my school and some of my friends had games consoles I didn’t own so we’d go around to each others houses just to play a variety of games. But that was over 20 years ago and over that time I’ve played some amazing gets as well as some not so great games. So I thought I’d make a list of five retro games that I think everyone should at least have a go at playing. I’m going to keep away from Mario and Sonic games because they are already pretty well known and played by most people so here we go!

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Alex Kidd in Miracle World (SEGA Master System)
This has to be my most loved retro game out there. Alex was originally the mascot for SEGA, well unofficially as mascots weren’t even considered back then. He could pack a punch and people knew it too, with one French magazine giving this video game a 99% rating and Sega Pro giving it a 95%. Not bad for Alex’s first video game. This game was put in as a built-in game for the Master System 2 and would easily become the first video game many children would play in the late 80’s and early 90’s. However this changed when Sonic was given the mascot crown and Alex was taken out of future Master System 2 consoles and replaced with the Sonic the Hedgehog built-in instead. It is still a worthwhile video game to play with a very catchy theme song, fun levels and interesting baddies.

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Kirby’s Adventure (NES)
I love Kirby and all the Kirby games, infact my first Gameboy game was Kirby’s Dreamland which I was going to put on this list but I wanted to keep this as consoles and perhaps do a handheld list another time. Kirby is adorable, you cannot ignore that. But don’t let the cuteness fool you for Kirby can fight back and save the day. Kirby games are usually fairly similar in some way and often include eating, food and sucking up baddies. Basically Kirby’s power is his mouth. This game was out on the NES and a late-generation game for the system. This meant to used the power of the NES to it’s full potential and for a game on the NES it looks pretty darn good! It was awarded Best NES Game of 1993 and reviewers loved it. And you will too so give it a try!

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Super Bomberman 3 (SNES)
Now this is an interesting one because for those of you in America you’ll be weeping because this game never made it over there. Sorry! I did play many of the Super Bomberman games (yes Super Bomberman, I didn’t get to play the original Bomberman games) but this one always grabbed me. Perhaps it’s because of the cute Louies that caught my interest. But if you are unable to get hold of this game then I’d say Mega Bomberman for the Mega Drive/Genesis is just as enjoyable. And I don’t just mean because it never came out in America, but also because Super Bomberman 3 can sell for stupid amount of money on eBay whilst Mega Bomberman sells for a lot less, so don’t pick what you can afford! Also if you got friends who are in to retro games as well this is a great game to get them together and have a good time.

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Mortal Kombat 3 (Various)
This is on my list for a few reasons. For one it’s a game that came out on so many platforms can so pretty much anyone could buy it whether they owned a SNES, Mega Drive (Genesis) or were just handheld owners, anyone could play this game pretty much. But that’s also another reason I have this on my list. Anyone could play this no matter what age you were. My friend had this on his SNES (American cartridge, which I thought was amazing and mind blowing) and there was a lot of blood, awful fatalities and pretty nasty stuff that kids of our age probably shouldn’t be seeing or playing. And this game is why we have our rating system, in the UK and Europe we have the PEGI rating whilst in the USA they have the ESRB. These were pretty much created thanks to the home console version of Mortal Kombat (and a few other games but this was brought up in court a lot) and so I think it is well worth playing as it’s part of video gaming history. And trust me, the pixelated blood and gore doesn’t make you want to kill people. Because blood isn’t made of little squares, funnily enough.

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Disney’s Aladdin (SNES/Mega Drive)
This was really hard as I was stuck between this and The Lion King, but there had to be at least one Disney game on my retro list. Both are awesome Disney games but there’s some levels in Aladdin that just stand out more compared to The Lion King. Now I played the Mega Drive version (Sorry I was a SEGA gal) and having seen the SNES version I kinda have to say the Mega Drive is way cooler. But I know Nintendo fans prefer the SNES version, so I’d suggest you look them up first or just get the one for the console you already own. This is the Virgin Games one I’m talking about, who also made a bunch of other Disney games which were also pretty fantastic. Remember the movie? Remember the main scenes of the movie? Picture yourself being part of those moments and playing them as a levels in a game. That is how Virgin Games got this game so perfect. There’s a level made out to “You Ain’t Never Had a Friend Like Me” scene and the music (whilst limited to what the consoles could play back then) was amazing! Remember when Aladdin rides Carpet away from the rushing lava? That’s a level and oh my god it’s intense! Seriously why are you still reading this, go find this game and play it. Now!

So there you  go, those are my five retro games that I think you should go and play. I tried to pick a mixture of games although several are platformers because that was what was popular back then. But I hope you like my choice of games and if you have played any of these what were your thoughts? Do you have five you would recommend? Comment below, would love to hear them!