Blogging about abortion has got to be the hardest thing I have done when it comes to blogging. Having the abortion is top qof my list of hardest things I’ve done in my whole life. But why do I blog about something that, although is legal in our country, is very controversial?
This year I turned 27 years old, meaning 10 years ago on my 17th birthday I found out I was pregnant with a man who violently abused me and forced himqqaself on me. I was young and scared, I needed people to protect me and listen to me as I weep. Many of those who I thought I could speak to reacted badly. I was called all sorts of names.
Those are just a few of them, and although they are just names and should be ignored these were said to me by people I thought I could talk to. It hurt and knocked me back. I was already on anti-depressants and all this led to me becoming suicidal, mentally I was doing very poorly but the only help I got were in pill form. I was never offered counselling or therapy, I think back then people liked to throw pills at you to make you happy and “normal” like everybody else.
10 years on I still cry. I know what I did was the right thing but it still haunts me. The words, the ordeal itself, the loneliness. No woman should have to suffer like this and that’s why I blog about it. To help others realise they aren’t alone in feeling post-trauma. But also I blog about it in the hope that those who think badly of abortion understand women often do it for perfectly legitimate reasons. If you are one of those then tell me would you honestly think a child should be allowed to be brought up knowing their father is a violent rapist and their mother is mentally unwell and probably unfit to care for the child properly?
Those are my reasons for blogging about abortion and no one can stop me.